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Day 2232: Purpose in the Face of Fear

Fear is nothing in the face of purpose – that’s what I’ve realized.

 

It’s 11 :  26 AM on day 2232 of my journey towards independence and I managed to have breakfast, pray, read Romans 5:1,  learn one new thing – Definitions for compunction
1. a feeling of uneasiness or anxiety of the conscience caused by regret for doing wrong or causing pain; contrition; remorse. 2.any uneasiness or hesitation about the rightness of an action. – and work on my  25 Smiles Campaign    –raised $8 136.04 only  $4 363.96 more to raise to reach my second goal of raising $12 500 for Smile Train before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far ).

 

Yesterday my brother asked me how can you go ziplining when you’re scared of little heights (he’s right I’m scared of most things most of the time but I refuse to be ruled by fear) and I said I’m not scared because I’m not doing it for myself I’m doing it for Smile Train fear is nothing in the face of purpose.

Day 2115: Mastering Fear

“Do what you fear and fear disappears.” – David Joseph Schwartz

 

It’s 12 : 21  PM on day 2115 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read John 8: 36 , learn one new thing – The name Greenland comes from Scandinavian settlers. In the Norse sagas, it is said that Erik the Red was exiled from Iceland for murder. He set out in ships to find land rumoured to be to the northwest. After settling there, he named the land Grfnland (Greenland), possibly to attract more people to settle there. – have breakfast, go visit Josh and the kids at  UThixo Ulungile Ministries @ Stoney Drift – it was so much fun the kids are so sweet –    and work on my  25 Smiles Campaign    –Daleen Barnard  donated $25 (thanks so much Daleen) which brings the total raised to $6 520 only  $5 980 more to raise to reach my second goal of raising $12 500 for Smile Train before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far 🙂 ).

 

Today I realized that if I don’t master my fear I will be enslaved to it so from now onwards fear won’t stop me I will use it as fuel to perform at my best.

Day 2110: My Real Greatest Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.” – Marianne Williamson

 

It’s 12 : 07  PM on day 2110 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read Deuteronomy 31:6, have breakfast, learn one new thing – According to botanists (those who study plants) a fruit is the part of the plant that develops from a flower. It’s also the section of the plant that contains the seeds. The other parts of plants are considered vegetables. These include the stems, leaves and roots — and even the flower bud.-and work on my  25 Smiles Campaign    – raised $5 910 only $340 more to raise before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far 🙂 ).

 

Last night I realized that how great I could be scares me more than failure and utter humiliation does.

Day 2040: Fear and Faith

Where there’s faith there’s no fear– that’s what I’ve realized.

 

It’s 12 : 45 PM on day 2040 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read Revelation 17, have breakfast, learn one new thing – Most octopuses can eject a thick, blackish ink in a large cloud to aid in escaping from predators. The main coloring agent of the ink is melanin, which is the same chemical that gives humans their hair and skin color.- and work on my 25 Smiles Campaign –raised $5 456  only $794  more to raise by 10 Jan 2017  (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far :)  ).

 

This morning I realized people use fear to get us to buy stuff that we most often don’t need fear of ageing sells anti-ageing products, fear of crime sells security systems, fear of being the odd one out makes us buy designer clothes (that we can’t afford)…… the world is trying to use our fears to get us to consume and acquire more but I seldom fall for it because I know that whatever else I don’t have I have God.

Day 1876: India, Fear and Ignorance

“To me, Fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” ― Taylor Swift

 

It’s  12 :  43 PM on day 1876 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Acts 21, publish my Disability of the Day feature, learn one new thing -Definitions for desultory 1) digressing from or unconnected with the main subject; random: a desultory remark. 2) lacking in consistency, constancy, or visible order, disconnected; fitful: desultory conversation.- have breakfast and work on my potential future project.

 

As you may or may not know my family and I are going on vacation to India in less than a month I am both excited for and apprehensive about our trip excited because I haven’t seen my family over there in like three years and apprehensive because the last time I was there every time I went out in public I was made to feel like a circus-freak my parents will probably try to keep me inside in an effort to protect me but they will fail miserably because come what may I fully intend on being out there in public in people’s faces I refuse to hide in my house like I’ve committed some sort of crime I’ve earned the right to roll through this life with my head held high.

 

(Note: My intention in writing this post is not to give India or my fellow Indians a bad name I’m just writing from my past experience).

Day 1862: Doing what scares you

If something you’re doing scares you and gives you the I’m-going-to-puke feeling you’re definitely on the right track – that’s what I realized today.

 

It’s  12 :  31  PM on day 1862 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Acts 7, publish my Disability of the Day feature, learn one new thing –The male great horned owl is smaller than the female and has a much lower-pitched call. – have breakfast, continue working on my local project – it’s no wonder people these days only have a few kids I was checking out the prices I was actually shocked to see that teddy bears and dolls cost R100 or more (I kid you not) but I will make a plan I think I already have – and read Catherine Constantinides… an incredible South African focused on positive change! by  Brent Lindeque – it’s a great article (ok fine maybe I am more than a little biased because  the article is about Catherine but I still say it’s a great article that everybody should read).

 

Today thinking about the local project I’m currently working on it occurred to me that I’m doing exactly when I’m supposed to be doing because 1) it scares me and 2) it gives me the I’m-going-to-puke feeling – which are the signs that you’re having an experience that is growing you as a person.

Day 1552: Fear Come True

“There are very few monsters who warrant the fear we have of them.” – Andre Gide

 

It’s 12 : 05 PM on day 1552 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray, read Isaiah 37,   publish my Disability of the Day feature,   promote my Educate Generations campaign– on $1 190 – feed myself egg with bread for breakfast and continue promoting the Educate Generations campaign – still on $ 1 190 but I continue to be grateful 🙂

 

This year one of my worst fears came true and I came through it just fine in fact I learned a lot from the experience my fear of what could happen was worse than what actually happened. Have you come to realize that nothing is as scary as you make it out to be in your head?

Day 1275: Do you motivate through love or through fear and intimidation?

You can motivate more through love than you can through fear and intimidation – that’s what I realized last night.

 

It’s 1  : 02 PM on day 1275 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  brush my teeth,  feed myself egg with bread for breakfast,  pray, read Job 9, publish my Disability of the Day feature, practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, stretch my hamstrings and  promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – nobody donated so far today but I’ll keep trying 🙂

 

Last night my brother was telling me about the endurance hike that he had to participate in today I could tell that he was slightly reluctant to participate so I said do the first 12.5 kilometers for me and the other 12.5 kilometers for yourself and guess what that’s exactly what he’s doing right now (SO PROUD of him) just goes to show you can motivate more through love than you can through fear and intimidation.  Do you motivate through love or through fear and intimidation? 

Day 260

Fairest and best adorned is she whose clothing is humility. – James Montgomery

It’s 7: 01 PM on day 260 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, tweet about my Clean Water For All Campaign –no luck – read Jude: The Diary of a baby and a stroke and visit Emily’s Smile Boxes – there is a tie that binds both the blog and website which I didn’t initially know about Jenn who writes the blog is also the mother of Emily – the founder of Emily’s Smile Boxes 🙂 – feed myself a polony sandwich for breakfast, watch TV, feed myself rice and curry for lunch, watch some more TV and feed myself banana for dinner.

As you know I am very independent in spirit which is why I find it extremely difficult to ask people for help in any aspect of my life but today I realized that even superheroes need help once in a while so I am asking you with the upmost humility to write about my campaign on your blog or website (see guidelines below).Do you fear asking for help because you are afraid of becoming co-dependent?

Your post must include:

  • An introductory paragraph about how you came to know of me and my campaign and just below it you should copy and paste Who I Am – a blog post I wrote introducing myself.

Are we connecting on Twitter? If not, say hi at http://twitter.com/Nisha360

if you’ve given to my cause or you can’t give now, please help me by sharing my cause with others. You can tweet about it like my friend Stan Faryna. This is the tweet he uses: @Nisha360 is a brave, smart young woman trying to make a better world for us all. Please help her do an amazing thing. http://bit.ly/hC7vOu

Stan’s very sweet for saying so, but feel free to write what reflects you best.

Thanks to all my friends out there who are helping me make my dream come true: to make a better world for all of us!

Day 190

The whole is more than the sum of its parts. – Aristotle

It’s 10: 31  PM on day 190 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth,  tweet about my Clean Water For All Campaign for a few hours – no luck –  feed myself rice and curry for lunch,  tweet about my campaign some more – still no luck 🙁  – feed myself Chapati – an unleavened flatbread – filled with salad and mutton gravy and watch TV.

 Several people – my mother included –  have told me that I am wise beyond my years and although that this is true to a certain extent I think that they have forgotten that I am just a nineteen soon-to-be twenty-year-old girl trying to find my place in the world with that said I would like to take this moment to introduce you to all aspects of me – from my favourite music, movies and books to my greatest hopes, fears and future travel destinations  – like me or leave me I don’t mind either way 🙂

Nisha: The Human Being


I hope to:

  • Learn how to do things by myself
  • Become an author
  • Buy a house
  • Travel the world

 

I am afraid of:

  • Public speaking
  • Rejection
  • The possibility of having to live with my parents for the rest of my life

 

The Colosseum, Rome

  

The Big Ben, London

The Eiffel Tower, Paris