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Day 2299: When Fears Come True

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Your worst fears can come true and you’ll still survive – that’s what I realized.

 

It’s 12: 45 PM on day 2299 of my journey towards independence and I managed to  -pray, read Psalm 119:165  and work on my  25 Smiles Campaign    – yesterday  Benedict Joson  donated $25   (thanks Ben 🙂 )  which brings the total  raised to $9 625.04 only  $2 874.96 more to raise to reach my second goal of raising $12 500 for Smile Train before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far ).

 

Yesterday I was gently informed that I had become a third wheel in someone’s life needless to say I was mortified but my worst fear of being a third wheel came true and I was still alive and kicking.

Day 1865: Telephone Conversations, Fears and Me

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If you’re going to play the what-if game play it till the end – that’s my message to the world.

 

It’s  1 :  40  PM on day 1865 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Acts 10, publish my Disability of the Day feature, learn one new thing –Incendiary [in·cen·di·ar·y] adj. Designed to cause fires. “An incendiary device.”- have breakfast, continue working on my new local project – i spent hours  on the phone trying to order Christmas gifts the people talking to me couldn’t understand most of what i was  trying to say (many thanks to my frenemy Cerebral Palsy) but they were so patient with me I’ve set up a meeting at the store tomorrow hopefully they will understand me better in person – make sandwiches for the kids in our sisi’s (housekeeper’s) neighborhood with sisi’s  help as part of  Virginia’s Sandwich Run (thank you sisi for all your help today).

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Today I conquered my fear of initiating a phone conversation with strangers (because I have Cerebral Palsy my speech is more often than not unclear especially when I’m nervous like when I have phone conversations with strangers) it’s true that one of my my worst fears came to life when I realized that the people on the other end of the line didn’t understand most of what I was saying but hey I tried my best and I’m still alive despite one of my worst fears coming to life.

Day 1776: My fears

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Fear is just a feeling – that’s what I keep reminding myself.

 

It’s 12 : 23  PM on day 1776 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Matthew 8, publish my Disability of the Day feature,    learn one new thing – Redact(ed) [re·dact] tr.v. Edit something: to edit, revise, or delete content in preparation for publication. “The documents were redacted so personal information wasn’t released to the public.” – have breakfast and promote my Educate Generations campaign – $3 372 raised so far (thanks to everyone who has (and continues to) help out I am SO GRATEFUL to all 60 of you (yes, I keep count thanks so much all of you for caring).

 

This morning I decided to write down all my fears in the hopes that seeing my fears in black and white would help me face them and overcome them. Take a look:

 

My fears

  1. Speaking in front of a large crowd (I have major stage fright I’m so scared of getting in front of people and going totally blank)
  2. Radio interviews (I know that doing radio interviews would be beneficial for my philanthropic projects but I’m afraid people  won’t understand what I’m trying to say (because I have Cerebral Palsy my speech is not as clear as it could be and  sometimes there’s like small breaks in my speech))
  3. Tv interviews