[Picture taken: 23 Feb 2018]

Sometimes the things we say lightly are the truest things – that’s what I’ve realized.

It’s 12 :  24 PM on day 2736 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read 2 Samuel 22:4 and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised  $12 559 only $6 191 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to help 75 kids with clubfoot (thanks so much to everyone who has helped out so far).

This morning I was thinking about something I said to my mother while I was in hospital I said some people my age get wedding pictures I get hospital pictures I meant to lighten the mood with something that in reality breaks my heart my mother was visibly heartbroken I saw it on her face and heard it in the cracks in her voice I now regret the joke that wasn’t actually a joke because now my mom really realizes that I understand and ache for the things I may never have I thought she would forget my words but a few days later when she thought I was sleeping she told my dad what I said (I suppose married people have to tell each other things but I feel embarrassed that my dad  knows that I know and think about marriage, sex and the happily-ever-after-life I think before my joke my parents just assumed that because I am different issues of marriage and children were not in my train of thought but actually sometimes  I think about Saturday mornings where little feet would tip-toe into the bedroom I share with my significant other to have with pillow fights with us and then I snap out of it every time a little heartbroken after which I get back to trying to make the world a better place for all the world’s children… so beautiful yet so heart-breaking),