“The earth will survive, humans won’t.” – Catherine Constantinides
Today marks the beginning of the Global Climate Strike led by Swedish teenager Greta Thunberg (one girl’s protest has now become a global movement it’s beautiful to see) the planet is the one thing all of humanity shares and it’s our collective responsibility to care of it before it can no longer take care of us.
“Life, if well lived, is long enough.” – Seneca
Today marks one month since my physiotherapist Gerda’s death time has moved both quickly and slowly at the same and her absence is a void in my universe that will never be filled
Sometimes you’ve got to sit with the heaviness in your heart and soul– that’s what I’ve realized
Tonight my heart and soul are heavy for many reasons I cannot escape it so I’m going to embrace it.
The most important choice you’ll ever make is the choice you make to choose hope over fear – that’s what I’ve realized
Today there’s a lot of things weighing on my heart but I’m choosing hope over fear
Death and life are two sides of the same coin– that’s what I’ve realized
Recently I’ve been surrounded by death I’m beginning to realize death and life are two sides of the same coin
There
is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
– Ecclesiastes 3:2
This season of my life is teaching me about the impermanence of life I’m shocked and holding on to everyone I love knowing that it won’t matter how hard I hold on
Expect the unexpected – that’s what I’ve realized
Yesterday i found out that my boys (the twins I love so much at the place of safety I often visit) have been removed from the place of safety into a cluster foster home without much warning and FOR NO REASON…after everything they have endured at the hands of their biological family they deserved to be happy instead they have been removed from the only place they have known and from the only people they have ever known I’m so heartbroken and sad
You don’t know the measure of your love till you’ve lost– that’s what I’ve realized
Recently I realized that we don’t know the measure of our love till we’ve lost it’s been almost a month since Gerda died and I’m still crying about it every day twice a day – my parents think I’m back to myself because I cry when they’re not here and into my pillow under the cover of darkness – it would have been less painful if someone just ripped my heart out I now realize how much I truly loved Gerda she who didn’t have children of her own probably didn’t even know she was like a second mother to me – even my parents knew her place in my life which is why before I embarked on any of my crazy-dangerous adventures they would say let’s ask Gerda first no matter how much I wanted to do something I wouldn’t do it without Gerda’s blessing (I once wanted to go Scuba Diving she said no and when I continued to plead with her she held a tissue paper in front of my face and asked me to blow it away I thought I did a good job but she said your breath control is not good enough and in that moment I so appreciated that she took the time to demonstrate why she said no to my request I never brought it up again…Gerda was truly The Nisha Whisperer I miss her so much already)
You have to feel it to heal it-that’s what I’ve realized
Recently I realized that contrary to popular belief we don’t get over things but rather through them we feel it, experience it and move forward
Change is hard – that’s what I’ve realized
Last week at only 2nd appointment with my new physiotherapist I had to tell her I was on my period (my physio needs to know about my cycle because I’m a lot stiffer when I’m on my period) I paused for a second before I said anything but eventually I told her (with Gerda I hardly had to mention it she had known me since before I started my period so she could instinctively notice the changes in my body) things have changed and it’s taking me a while to get used to