However you feel it’s ok – that’s the lesson that keeps coming back to me.

It’s 10 : 48 AM on day 2612 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray,  read 2 Thessalonians 3:16 and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet -raised $4 488 only $8 012 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to help 50 kids with clubfoot (thanks to everyone who has helped out so far).

This morning as I looked at a picture of a family with a new born baby be happy for them I commanded myself and I genuinely was but even as I type this my right hand is on what will probably never be my womb I feel so empty and it hurts so bad few people in this life will ever know what it’s like to be stared in the face every day by that which you may never have it’s a dagger through the heart being twisted a billion times, taken out and being put back in only you have a smile on your face because you are genuinely happy for the new family and wish them nothing but the very best in life.