I am a living, breathing contradiction and that’s almost okay – that’s what I keep realizing.

It’s 11 :  20 AM on day 2235 of my journey towards independence and I managed to have breakfast, pray, read Romans 5:17,  learn one new thing – Spanish explorer Juan Ponce de Leon, who led the first European expedition to Florida in 1513, named the state in tribute to Spain’s Easter celebration known as “Pascua Florida,” or Feast of Flowers. – and work on my  25 Smiles Campaign    –raised $8 136.04 only  $4 363.96 more to raise to reach my second goal of raising $12 500 for Smile Train before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far ).

Today it occurred to me yet again how much of a contradiction I actually am I am fiercely independent in mind and in spirit and yet I’m so dependent on others for my physical needs, I am an optimist and a realist, I  strive to be selfless and yet sometimes I can’t see past my own needs….. I’ve stopped trying to figure myself out and have decide just to love myself contradictions and all.