With time grief doesn’t go away it just changes – that’s what I keep realizing.

It’s 1 :  03 PM on day 1650 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  brush my teeth,  pray,  read Ezekiel 10, publish my Disability of the Day feature, learn one new thing –Cuddling Releases Natural Painkillers. Oxytocin, the so-called love or cuddle hormone, is produced during an embrace or cuddle. The hormone appears in the brain, ovaries and testicles and is thought to be involved in the bonding process. Research has found that a dose of oxytocin decreases headaches significantly, and for some it even makes the pain go away completely after 4 hours – feed myself egg and bread for breakfast and go shopping with mom.

Last year my grandma died in the first few months after her death I thought about her frequently but now days go by without me thinking of her and when something does finally remind me of her I feel so guilty for not remembering her more often it’s awful.