I’m used to having to fight for approval and acceptance that’s why I chose to help people I have to chase after– that’s what I realized this morning.

It’s  12 : 20 PM on day 1804 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Romans 11, publish my Disability of the Day feature, learn one new thing  –Obfuscate [ob·fus·cate] v. Render obscure, unclear, or unintelligible. Bewilder (someone). “The eclipse will obfuscate the sun’s light.”– have breakfast and  hang  with family.

This morning I realized that I’m used to having to fight for approval and acceptance that’s why I choose to help people I have to chase after which is dysfunctional but it makes sense in a strange sort of way needless to say now that I know why I do what I do I’m so done chasing people if they don’t want or appreciate my help I’ll just take it somewhere else.