“Crying is cleansing. There’s a reason for tears, happiness or sadness.” – Dionne Warwick

Two days ago I just decided not to cry in the evening now I just wait for everybody to go to work then I go outside and cry by myself for a few minutes (I’m pretty sure our housekeeper hears me but she knows not to tell my family so that’s fine – I don’t like crying in front of people, not even ones through which I can to be plus they worry too much (my mom has been sleeping in my bed for the past 4 days hope she thinks I’m fine and moves out soon)

Pain is proof that you’ve loved – that’s what I have realized

Yesterday morning and the night before I was vomiting my guts out Gerda’s probably smiling down on me saying I knew you loved me deep, deep down my story was shaped by her presence and will be further shaped by her absence…this hurts so much so so much.   

The best things in life are real not virtual – that’s what I have realized

My family and I are going away for the weekend for a special occasion. See you Monday

Even if you fail at goals if you do it while living your values you’ll never have to hang your head in shame– that’s what I have realized

Today I feel like I’m failing at one of the few goals I set for myself this year but at least I’m doing it staying true to my values

Speak even when you feel like nobody’s listening– that’s my message to the world

Today I feel unheard but I’m going to continue saying things that matter anyway

Magic can be found in every moment – that’s what I realized

This afternoon sitting outside I realized magic is not found in places but rather in moments that you’re truly present.

 Love never dies – that’s what I keep reminding myself

On this day 5 years ago my grandmother took her final breath and left me broken of heart i understood then and i understand now that it was her time but it still hurts – i miss her physical presence(even when her memories were gone she came when i called. Her heart remembered me), Rest in Peace Ammachi I carry with me the love we share I’m still a lot broken-hearted that you’re not here with me but I wouldn’t be your grandchild if I didn’t put a smile on my face and carry on

“Beautiful people

Drop top, designer clothes

Front row at fashion shows

“What d’you do?” And, “Who d’you know?”

Inside the world of beautiful people

Champagne and rolled-up notes

Prenups and broken homes

Surrounded, but still alone

Let’s leave the party” – Ed Sheeran ,“Beautiful People”

Recently I heard “Beautiful People” by Ed Sheeran I love it and have to share it

To be free is not merely to cast off one’s chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.

Today being Mandela Day – a day during which people all over the world spend 67 minutes of their time in service of others in honour of the late Nelson Mandela’s 67 years of service – and what would have been Mr. Mandela’s 101^st birthday I once again urge everybody to fellow in his footsteps and serve the world every day not just on July 18^th. Happy Birthday Tata Madiba you are sorely missed and deeply loved.