“Crying is cleansing. There’s a reason for tears, happiness or sadness.” – Dionne Warwick

Two days ago I just decided not to cry in the evening now I just wait for everybody to go to work then I go outside and cry by myself for a few minutes (I’m pretty sure our housekeeper hears me but she knows not to tell my family so that’s fine – I don’t like crying in front of people, not even ones through which I can to be plus they worry too much (my mom has been sleeping in my bed for the past 4 days hope she thinks I’m fine and moves out soon)

Pain is proof that you’ve loved – that’s what I have realized

Yesterday morning and the night before I was vomiting my guts out Gerda’s probably smiling down on me saying I knew you loved me deep, deep down my story was shaped by her presence and will be further shaped by her absence…this hurts so much so so much.   

The best things in life are real not virtual – that’s what I have realized

My family and I are going away for the weekend for a special occasion. See you Monday

Even if you fail at goals if you do it while living your values you’ll never have to hang your head in shame– that’s what I have realized

Today I feel like I’m failing at one of the few goals I set for myself this year but at least I’m doing it staying true to my values

Speak even when you feel like nobody’s listening– that’s my message to the world

Today I feel unheard but I’m going to continue saying things that matter anyway

Magic can be found in every moment – that’s what I realized

This afternoon sitting outside I realized magic is not found in places but rather in moments that you’re truly present.