Life consists of ups and downs – that’s what I’ve realized

Last night I woke up crying after picturing Gerda’s car overturning over and over and over again my mom who’s been sleeping in my bed since August 19^{th –} i’ve asked her to  please go back to her room with dad she refuses – woke up and asked what was happening I didn’t tell her or anyone Gerda’s death is still hurting me I expected her to grow old and die a long time from this year my violated expectation is breaking my heart and soul and truly messing with my mind compounded by a few traumatic family things I’m holding on to people so tired afraid that they’ll either die or get hurt

Life is fragile – lesson of 2019

Recently I was reminded yet again of the fragility of life I can’t go into details but suffice to say i’m holding on a little tighter to all those i love

Feel your feelings – that’s my message to the world

Today I’m not okay and that’s okay I’m going to hang out with the trees, flowers and birds for a while

“Happiness is a constant work-in-progress, because solving problems is a constant work-in-progress—the solutions to today’s problems will lay the foundation for tomorrow’s problems, and so on. True happiness occurs only when you find the problems you enjoy having and enjoy solving.”― Mark Manson, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life

Yesterday I finished reading The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life by Mark Manson it’s a refreshingly honest self-help book filled with practical advice I recommend it to all who don’t mind a little vulgar language   

The daily goal is improvement not perfection – that’s what I keep reminding myself

Today I was reminded that the daily goal is improvement not perfection none of us will ever be perfect but each of us can strive to be better people than we were yesterday