I want life and I want to be alive despite it all– that’s what I’ve realized.

It’s 12: 49 PM on day 3048 since I started blogging and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, spend time outside and do some work

This morning as our housekeeper, Amanda, was transferring me from my bed to my wheelchair so that I could go pee and change my clothes I thought to myself will my life always be this hard and I knew the answer was yes yet I still wanted life and wanted to be alive remembering how after my surgery last year I was grateful to be alive even when I was most in pain.