Tag Archives: Life

Day 1295: Words may lie but actions do not

Words may lie but actions do not – that’s what I keep realizing.

It’s 12 : 09 PM on day 1295 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, read Job 29, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself bran flakes for breakfast, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – no donations so far today but three people promised to donate soon – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, stretch my hamstrings and continue promoting my campaign – still no luck.

This morning I was thinking about people who lift me up with their words and let me down with their actions people say I’m amazing and inspirational (I don’t believe I’m either of those things I’m just a girl trying to change the world) but when I ask for their help most of them disappear faster than Houdini just goes to show words may lie but actions do not. When you’re trying to figure out if someone cares about you or not do you listen to what they say or look at what they do?

Day 1292: Nice people finish last

2 Replies

Nice people finish last–that’s what I realized this morning.

It’s 12 : 42 PM on day 1292 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, go back to bed – sometimes I wake up too early and today was one of those days I woke up at 4 AM – read Job 26, feed myself bran flakes for breakfast, publish my Disability of the Day feature, practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, stretch my hamstrings promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – no donations so far today if all goes well I will be able to make a donation of my own in May I can’t wait.

This morning I asked somebody if she bought something for other people and I was made to feel like an annoyance even though I wasn’t asking for me I guess it’s true what they say nice people finish last but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop being nice. Have you stopped being nice because you’ve realized that nice people finish last?

Day 1291: Are you finding or creating a place where you belong?

4 Replies

If you can’t find a place where you belong then create it–that’s what I realized this morning.

It’s 12 : 00 PM on day 1291 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, stretch my hamstrings, brush my teeth, practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, read Job 25, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself bran flakes for breakfast and promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – no donations so far today.

This morning I was thinking about how socially awkward I am I find myself too young for those who are older than me and too old for those who are younger than me and the people my age are either off in other places doing their own thing or I have nothing in common with them I’m grateful that I get to do the things I get to do but it also makes me kinda lonely because nobody I know is doing the things I’m doing I guess I’ll just have to create a place where I belong complete with like-minded people. Are you finding or creating a place where you belong?

Day 1288: Have you realized that you can’t help everyone?

Leave a reply

As much as you want to you can’t help everyone–that’s what I keep realizing.

It’s 12 : 30 PM on day 1288 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, read Job 22, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself boiled egg and All Bran Flakes for breakfast, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – no donations so far today but Anonymous donated £20 yesterday (THANK YOU God and THANK YOU Anonymous) which brings my total raised to $474.47 only $525.53 more to raise in 112 days – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles and stretch my hamstrings.

Yesterday I got an email from an environmental organisation asking me to help them with their latest project I felt so bad that I had to send them a good-luck-but-I-can’t-help-you email because I knew what it was like to be on the other side of the situation but now I realize as much as I want to I can’t help everyone I am going to pick a few organisations to support and I’m going to support them wholeheartedly hopefully that will make me feel less bad about not being able to help everyone. Have you realized that you can’t help everyone?

Day 1283: Indebted to no one but indebted to everyone

2 Replies

As much as we don’t want to be indebted to anyone we are indebted to the planet and the people in it just by virtue of being alive – that’s what I realized yesterday.

It’s 12 : 00 PM on day 1283 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, read Job 17, publish my Disability of the Day feature feed myself All Bran Flakes for breakfast and promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign –still no donations yet – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles and stretch my hamstrings.

Yesterday I was overwhelmed by this feeling of not wanting to be indebted to anyone but then I realized I am indebted to the planet and the people in it just by virtue of being alive I owe my parents for bringing me into the world, I owe the planet for emitting so much carbon dioxide into the atmosphere, I owe people who have less than me through no fault of their own…I am indebted to everyone even when I am indebted to no one. Do you get that you are indebted to the planet and the people in it just by virtue of being alive?

Day 1282: Life and Taking Calculated Risks

Leave a reply

“Life is a series of calculated risks, James. I happen to think that this one is worth it.” ― Lish McBride, Necromancing the Stone

It’s 12 : 46 PM on day 1282 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, read Job 16, feed myself All Bran Flakes for breakfast, publish my Disability of the Day feature and promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign –no luck yet – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles and stretch my hamstrings.

For a few years now the people in my life have been telling me to do something way out of my comfort zone and yesterday I finally decided to take their advice so if all goes well in a few days I will be stepping into a new career it could blow up in my face (please God don’t let that be) or it may be the key to my financial independence either way we’ll have to wait and see. Do you take calculated risks or always do what you think is safest?

Day 1277: Dealing with disappointment

Leave a reply

Sometimes things don’t work out the way you thought they would that’s life you’ve got to get over it– that’s what I realized yesterday.

It’s 12 : 58 PM on day 1277 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, feed myself All Bran Flakes for breakfast, pray, read Job 11, publish my Disability of the Day feature, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – nobody donated so far today but I’m working on it and if worse comes to worst I’ll back me and be donor number 17 I’m not a millionaire by any means but I’ll give what I can – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles and stretch my hamstrings.

Yesterday I was informed that something I thought would eventually happen was in fact not going to happen I was disappointed but that’s life sometimes things don’t work out the way you thought they would you’ve got to get over it. Do you have a hard time getting over disappointment?

Day 1272: The blessing and curse of seeing life through your eyes

Leave a reply

Seeing life only through one pair of eyes is both a blessing and a curse– that’s what I realized last night.

It’s 1 : 20 PM on day 1272 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray, read Job 6, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself egg with bread for breakfast, spend time with family, talk to my granny in India on Skype, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign –13 days still no donation but I’ll email a few more people my parents won’t like me basically asking people we know to make donations and there’s a chance I’ll get yelled at for it but I’d rather be yelled for doing the right thing than do nothing and keep everybody happy.

Last night I realized seeing life only through one pair of eyes is both a blessing and a curse it’s a curse in that we can’t fully appreciate what another person is going through and it’s a blessing in that we can’t fully appreciate what another person is going through imagine if we could see life through everybody’s eyes we would go crazy. Have you come to realize that seeing life only through your eyes is not such a bad thing?

Day 1264: Celebrate Your Life

Leave a reply

Celebrate your life – that’s my message to myself and the world.

It’s 12 : 00 PM on day 1264 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth, read Esther 8, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself All Bran Flakes for breakfast, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – nobody donated so far today either– make sandwiches for our housekeeper’s neighborhood with our housekeeper’s help – some days my left hand just spasms up and today was one of those days which made making sandwiches a messing business I spread more margarine on my clothes than I did on the slices of bread in the end I swallowed my pride and asked our housekeeper to come help me finish up (thank you sisi for all your help)- and practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles.

Today I realized I should celebrate my life more sometimes I catch myself thinking you’re twenty-two and still live with your parents but now that I think about it occurs to me that I’ve lived twenty-two years and in those twenty-two years God has done amazing things through me and my friends so what I still live with my parents maybe there are still things God wants me to learn from my parents. Do you celebrate your life?

Day 1255: Existential Bummer

Leave a reply

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieve it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

– “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night” by Dylan Thomas

It’s 12 : 00 PM on day 1255 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray, read Nehemiah 12, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself bread with egg for breakfast, promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – nobody donated so far today but Anonymous made a $20 donation yesterday (thanks again Anonymous ) which brings my total raised to $335.81 I am SO GRATEFUL for the support that people have shown me – practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, stretch my hamstrings and listen to music.

Yesterday I watched Existential Bummer the video is basically about how we should live and love to the fullest in spite of the fact that in the end we’ll lose everything even our lives it’s a morbid yet strangely inspiring video. Watch Existential Bummer below: