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Day 2861: My Toughest Critic

Be your own toughest critic– that’s my message to the world

 

It’s 12 : 00 PM on day 2861 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and hang out with family

 

Today it dawned on me that I’m hard on myself for everybody who isn’t no matter what I do and how hard I try it’s never good enough for me the words playing in my head constantly sounds something like more, more, better, faster, push harder, go, go, watching a movie is such a waste of time who will it help reading my own thoughts I’m surprised I haven’t yet had a mental breakdown I guess I’ll always set the highest expectations for myself because some people don’t expect someone in a wheelchair to amount to anything (they are in for a HUGE SURPRISE because not only am I going to amount to something I’m going to do so spectacularly and in full view of the world)

Day 2860: Short-lived ideas

Some ideas die before they are ever born we must have the courage to voice them anyway – that’s what I realized.

 

It’s 1 : 20 PM on day 2860 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and hang out with family

 

Today I realized that an idea I’ve been working on has no future (through no fault of my own) but I’m proud that I voiced the idea and tried my upmost to make it work.

Day 2859: Mountains and Molehills

The mountains of your life are, most times, simply molehills enlarged by your thoughts– that’s my message to the world.

 

It’s 12 : 14 PM on day 2859 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, hang out with family and hang out outside.

 

Today I was sitting outside worried about how I was going to get everything down until I remembered that in the bigger scheme of things the mountains of my life are actually molehills I think oftentimes we allow our thoughts to turn molehills into mountains

 

Day 2856: July 9-16 Goals

 

 

Every Monday is a chance to start a new life, so use it.

 

It’s 1 : 23 PM on day 2856 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and hang out with family

 

 

Last Monday I set some goals and today I will again be evaluating myself to measure my progress and I’ll be setting some goals for the coming week as well. Take a look:

 

July 2-9 Goals Self-Evaluation

  1. Continue to be kind, honest and generous [tried]
  2. Be the best Supersidekick to my Superhero Catherine Constantinides [tried]
  3. Spend time outside as often as I can [did]
  4. Finish reading When Dimple Met Rishi 
  5. Learn 7+ new things [didn’t more often than I did]
  6. Write done 7 beautiful moments – 1 for every day of the week [did more often than not]
  7. Eat or drink something new [had homemade rusks from our neighbour ]
  8. Use social media to showcase the ability of differently-abled people and teach that Different IS COOL [I tried]

 

Highlights Of The Week

  • Spending time with K – that girl is my sun and my moon [I had planned for us to do a community service thing together but we couldn’t find the place, I got the wrong phone number for the place.. everything that could go wrong did and yet that girl still thought the world of me and with that a piece of my heart was forever hers]
  • Meeting Donae Carelse Goosen – Founder of the Norman Goosen Memorial Soup Kitchen and  a lovely lady in my city who feeds the children and elderly in her area on a weekly basis
  • Participating in Dischem Pharmacy’s #MillionComforts Campaign which provides school girls with sanitary pads
  • Superhero Catherine Constantinides making into News24’s 100 Young Mandelas of the Future list [I think it’s very appropriate that Catherine has been dubbed a Mandela of the future she is the best of humanity her humility and kindness is breath-taking – I’ve never shared this publicly but last year my helper passed out on the floor while my parents were at work I tried calling dad but wasn’t getting through so I quickly sent Catherine a private message on Twitter asking her to quickly phone my father and tell him to come home ASAP she paused everything she was doing, called my dad and stayed online with me until help arrived I would later find out when I messaged her she was organizing a dinner happening that night which a South African Minister would be attending AND STILL SHE DROPPED EVERYTHING TO HELP ME I was blown away]
  • Calling a friend to say happy birthday

 

 

July 9-16 Goals

  1. Continue to be kind, honest and generous
  2. Be the best Supersidekick to my Superhero Catherine Constantinides
  3. Spend time outside as often as I can
  4. Finish reading Choose Joy
  5. Learn 7+ new things
  6. Write done 7 beautiful moments – 1 for every day of the week
  7. Eat or drink something new
  8. Use social media to showcase the ability of differently-abled people and teach that Different IS COOL

Day 2850: Feeling Your Impact

Sometimes it’s not about seeing your impact but rather knowing you made one– that’s my message to the world

 

It’s 1 : 31 PM on day 2850 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and hang out with family.

 

Yesterday I tried something and it was a disaster so I tried again today and it worked out if things had worked out yesterday I would have been able to see my impact but the way things worked out today is  also okay I know I did good and that’s enough for me.

Day 2848: Do What Feels Right TO YOU

No matter how hard you try you’ll never make everyone happy so make yourself happy– that’s my message to the world

 

It’s 3 : 06 PM on day 2848 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and hang out with family

 

Yesterday I was reminded that no matter what I do not everybody will be happy some will say that place is not safe [poverty-stricken, crime-ridden] and I will go somewhere else and the same people will say that place is affluent this is not a legitimate charity these people are trying to scam you I can never win with some people so I give up trying I’m just going to keep doing what I feel is right

 

Day 2847: Surge of Envy

Nobody’s perfect and that’s okay– that’s what I’m realizing.

 

It’s 10 : 23 AM on day 2847 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and do some work

 

 

This morning as I sat waiting for someone to help me out of the bathroom I thought to myself some people are on the other end of the world and I struggle to get from my bedroom to the bathroom and back I try my hardest every day not to be envious and to instead me grateful but sometimes even despite the fact that I love my life and love helping people I can feel the envy coursing through me and I can hear myself think when is it going to be my turn to go places and do things? I wish I could rid myself of envy  completely but I’ve accepted I’m an imperfect human who will periodically feel envious and that’s okay as long as it doesn’t consume me and make me blind to my blessings (of which I have many).

 

Day 2843: Expect the Unexpected

In life expect the unexpected– that’s my message to the world.

 

It’s 12 : 09 PM on day 2843 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, spend time outside, read a Bible verse and do some work

 

Yesterday my today was free until mom invited some lovely lunch guests it’s fine I’m going to go with the flow they’re nice people.

Day 2842: June 25-July 2nd Goals

“By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail.” – Benjamin Franklin

It’s 1 : 27 PM on day 2842 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, spend time outside – it was fun just to be alone with birds they have no demands or expectations – and do some work

Last Monday I set some goals and today I will again be evaluating myself to measure my progress and I’ll be setting some goals for the coming week as well. Take a look:

 18th – 25   June Goals Self-Evolution

  1. Continue to be kind, honest and generous [I tried]
  1. Be the best Supersidekick to my Superhero Catherine Constantinides [I tried]
  2. Spend time outside as often as I can [I did]
  3. Read 200+ pages of When Dimple Met Rishi [currently on page 143]
  4. Learn 7+ new things [such a fail on this one this week]
  5. Write done 7 beautiful moments – 1 for every day of the week [did it more often than not ]
  6. Eat or drink something new [not done]
  7. Call 1 friend [not done – the world is suspicious of a girl who wants to call just to say hi or thank you so those I want to call I don’t have the phone numbers of and those whose phone numbers I do have I have called so many times they’re probably sick of me so although one of my goals this year was to call 2 family members and 2 friends every 3 months just to say hi or thank you I don’t think it’s going to work out]

Highlights of the week

  • My sister’s procedure going well
  • My sister reaching Australia safely (she’s in Australia for her 4-week med school elective I’m happy for her she’s always been a good kid always working hard and doing the right thing (in her 23 years of life she has never caused my parents heartache it’s extraordinary) my parents were happy to fund her trip because she truly truly earned it I’m happy for I hope she learns lots and has fun she deserves it
  • Getting a voice note from Superhero Catherine Constantinides says she was thinking of my family and I as we commemorated 41 days since my grandmother’s passing – I was so shocked that she remembered it was a wonder considering she’s at the UN HUMAN RIGHTS COUNCIL in GENEVA representing the people of the Western Sahara ( my Superhero makes my life she’s my lesson in kindness and humility I honestly am left speechless by her thoughtfulness she often says to me that no matter where she is she carries me in her heart and I believe her with my whole heart)
  • Being with my extended family

 June 25-July 2nd  Goals

  1. Continue to be kind, honest and generous
  2. Be the best Supersidekick to my Superhero Catherine Constantinides
  3. Spend time outside as often as I can
  4. Finish reading When Dimple Met Rishi 
  5. Learn 7+ new things
  6. Write done 7 beautiful moments – 1 for every day of the week
  7. Eat or drink something new
  8. Use social media to showcase the ability of differently-abled people and teach that Different IS COOL

Day 2841: 41 Days

Sometimes the passing of time just reminds you  of what you’ve lost – that’s what I’ve realized

It’s 2 : 13 PM on day 2841 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse and do some work

 

Today marks 41 days since my  maternal grandmother’s passing – 41 days is the end of the mourning period in the Orthodox Church calendar – and my life is so different I had no idea how much our Saturday phone calls were a part of my life. Miss you Ammachi. See you again someday.