Day 2804: One day it will be my turn

One day it will be my turn – that’s what I know.

It’s 12 : 42 PM on day 2804 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, spend time outside, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 469 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

This morning my mom called from India to say after she comes back at the end of the month she’s going to India again in August to attend my cousin’s wedding I’m glad I wasn’t on the phone because I wouldn’t know what to say I can’t exactly tell her not to go because I don’t want anyone to feel tethered to me or my wheelchair (that is my burden and blessing and I will bear it with grace and dignity) and I can’t exactly tell her I’m fine if she goes because my dad is a guy and he can’t help me with some stuff and the sisi (our helper) can’t stay over because she has kids so basically mom can’t go wherever whenever but I will never tell her that because I don’t want her to wake up one day resenting me for all the things she didn’t do. One day I won’t be the person left behind for others to look after I will travel the world and meet new people too (I just know it in the deepest part of me I don’t know how I know I just know) I’m determined not to be limited to these four walls I deserve the full human experience and I’m going to fight for it. One day it will finally be my turn.

Day 2803: Royal Wedding 2018 And Other Stuff

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Not everything you do has to have a deep and profound sometimes you can just do it because you want to – that’s what I’ve realized.

I plan on just chilling today.

Today I will be watching the Royal Wedding before I head to lunch at my cousin’s house I know these things won’t change the world but I need a serious break from reality so I’m going to watch the Royal Wedding and enjoy family time without chastising myself for wasting time.

Day 2802: The World’s Pity That Continues To Plague Me

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Choose people who choose you– that’s my message to the world.

It’s 1 : 23 PM on day 2802 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, spend time outside – it’s a beautiful day out I’m glad I took time to appreciate it – have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 469 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

A few weeks ago I emailed someone asking to help him with his project and when he didn’t reply I thought he was busy or didn’t see my email but my dad saw this man recently (for a different reason) and asked him what he needed for his project apparently he saw my email but didn’t respond because he didn’t want me to struggle I was so hurt that even when I want to help people some of them pity me after everything I’ve worked hard to be some people still pity me because of the body I was born into… if people don’t want my humble help then I won’t chase them and not because my ego has been wounded but because I made a decision at the beginning of 2018 to choose people who choose me.

Day 2801: #50NewFeet Campaign Eleven Months Later

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“Happiness… consists in giving, and in serving others.” – Henry Drummond

It’s 11: 21 AM on day 2801 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, have breakfast, read Proverbs 10 and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 449 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

Today marks the eleven month anniversary of my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet so far 123 people have made donations to this campaign and between us we’ve donated $14 4 – enough to provide clubfoot treatments for 57 kids (only $4 281 more to raise to reach my second goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17th 2018)– I am SO THANKFUL AND AMAZED. Thank you to my parents, Gaynor Young and B, Priya Thomas, GregThis, BevBern, Stan Faryna, David Boutin, Sharon D’Agostino, A&P, Julie and Don, Simon Magid, Giving Miracles, Meg Guegan, Maya Anne Ninan,Keith, Sendil Devarajan,Bithun Babu, Koshy Thomas, Katy Mannot, Mervyn, Deepu George, Nadine Sander, My paper Parties, Lisa Dewbery, Adel De Meyer, Pearl Shongwe,Teresa Williams, Sarah, Lisel, Alex Forshaw, Russell Williams, African Greek Godess, East London Malayalee Association, Jose Mammen, Vijay Mammen,Maya’s Papu, Lissy and Shajan, Jindalee Foundation, Debbie Gleason, Laissa Thomas, Captain Cactus, Asafika, Divine Illunga, Justine Perry, Anisa Sunker, Jerrin Mohan, Pramela Ramesh, Sebastian Schütte, Zarina Walele, Be Good To People, Kevin,Tim Fargo (founder of Social Jukebox), Shahrina Ramphaul, Matt (founder of We Make Good Things Happen), Melise, Mario, Dr. Jacob Mathai, Inna Valesquez Shaun Francis and Family,Tess Thomas, Air To Air Africa Ballooning, Dessy Bo, Julia, Rosly Renil, Piyuse Thomas, Rema Matthews, Roshni, Ciya and Riya,St. Thomas Orthodox Congregation of Southern Africa, J le Grange, OmniMed (Pty ) Ltd, Anjali, Juliet Parrott-Merrell, everybody who donated in honour of my niece Maya’s first birthday (i don’t know who among them wants their names mentioned and who doesn’t so I won’t mention any names), GodSpeaks and everyone else who chose to donate anonymously for your generous donations. Thank you Jacqui Mackway-Wilson, Stephanie Young, Yusuf Abramjee, Britt Michaelian, Catherine Constantinides, Stacey Holland, Stan Faryna, Ryan Cummings, Halla Tomasdottir, Bianca Rungasamy, Criselda Dudumashe Kendall Rayburn,Lisa Dewberry, Brand South Africa, Melissa Javan, Daily Dispatch, Barbara Hollands, Ashraf Gerda and everybody else for helping spread the word about this campaign.

Day 2800: Rest in Peace Ammachi

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Death is a reminder of the temporariness of life– that’s what I’ve realized.

I don’t feel like doing anything today.

Yesterday morning my maternal grandmother passed away I am sad but also grateful she is no longer suffering I will miss our weekly phone calls when we talked about everything and nothing everything has changed and yet the sun is still shining I wished it rained for a few days this sunny weather is insulting me for some reason (even the way I pray has changed every morning I prayed bless mommy, daddy, Neethu, Kevin, aunts, uncles, cousins, ammachi while today I prayed mommy, daddy, Neethu, Kevin, aunts, uncles, cousins, ammachi..ammachi’s soul it almost seems cruel that the world is still spinning when my family is so sad].Rest in peace Ammachi we mourn your death but mostly we celebrate your beautiful life. We love you and we will always keep you in our hearts.

Day 2799: Keep Moving

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“Just keep swimming.” – Dora

It’s 12 : 03 PM on day 2799 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 469 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

Today I was reminded of the importance of continuing to move through life even when it hurts, especially when it hurts. Just keep swimming.

Day 2798: My Attempt At Being Selfless

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Nothing in life is constant except change– that’s what I’ve realized.

It’s 11: 49 AM on day 2798 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 469 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

Yesterday my mom received a call from my aunt in india saying gran has taken a turn for the worse (she’s better now but the ticket is already booked) so my mom is headed to india this evening for two weeks it will just be my dad, my brother and I with our helper helping during the day and well into the evening (dear God may I not have any gender-specific issues or stomach issues during the nights the embarrassment would kill me) it’s going to be hard for me but my mom had a nuclear family before my existence I would be selfish if I asked her not to go to help them and selfish is something I strive not to be selfless is my goal.

Day 2797: Happy Mother’s Day

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“We are born of love; Love is our mother.”- Rumi

It’s 1 : 14 PM on day 2797 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, go to church, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 409 only $4 341 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

Today is Mother’s Day which is always a special day because where would any of be without our moms – everything I became was, is and always will be for my mom and the rest of my family Happy Mother’s Day to my mom and everybody else’s.

Day 2796: Life and Change

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Nothing in life remains constant– that’s what I’ve realized.

It’s 1 : 08 PM on day 2796 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 409 only $4 341 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

This morning mom was on the phone with Ammachi (grandma) and for some reason she was insistent on talking to me and I wanted to speak to her too (we call her every Saturday and often my mom hands me the phone and we talk briefly) this morning when I spoke to her all I heard were sounds and it broke my heart because I know what’s coming and I don’t want it to please God help her hang on till mom can go visit her next month.

Day 2795: Sentimental Me

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To me it’s the thought that counts most of all – that’s what I’ve realized.

It’s 12 : 15 PM on day 2795 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read a Bible verse, have breakfast and promote my 50 New Feet Campaign benefiting MiracleFeet – raised $14 469 only $4 281 more to raise by June 17, 2018 to reach my new goal of helping 75 kids with Clubfoot by June 17, 2018.

Yesterday my friends sent me something and while I LOVED the item I LOVED most of all that they thought to make me something and send it to me.(I’m sentimental like that).