When you share your struggle you also share your strength, courage and hope – that’s what I want the world to know.
It’s 10 : 34 AM on day 2466 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, have breakfast, read Malachi 3: 10 and learn a new word – Intrepidadj. 1. Resolutely courageous; fearless. Persistent in the pursuit of something. “A team of intrepid explorers.”
Yesterday I made a video and I’m choosing not to edit out the parts where I stuttered, forgot my words and moved awkwardly because I realize that when I share my struggle I also share my strength, courage and hope (there’s perfection in imperfection you just have to get your ego out of the way to see that with clarity).
Our past suffering is a reference point and a reminder that we can get through almost anything – that’s what I keep realizing.
It’s 12 : 09 PM on day 2130 of my journey towards independence and I managed to pray, read Deuteronomy 30:19, learn one new thing – Limited regeneration of limbs occurs in most fishes and salamanders, and tail regeneration takes place in larval frogs and toads (but not adults). The whole limb of a Salamander or a Triton will grow again and again after amputation. In reptiles, Chelonians, crocodiles and snakes are unable to regenerate lost parts. – have breakfast and work on my 25 Smiles Campaign – yesterday Maddie donated $20 (thanks so much Maddie your ongoing support means a lot 🙂 ) which brings the total raised to $6 990 only $5 510 more to raise to reach my second goal of raising $12 500 for Smile Train before Jan 10 2017 (SO SO SO GRATEFUL to everyone who has supported this campaign so far 🙂 ).
Yesterday while I was getting my face waxed the aesthetician kept apologizing (for causing me pain) and I said this is nothing compared to my back operation I use my past suffering as a reference point and a reminder that I can get through almost anything.
You cannot be your mother’s confidant – that’s what I learned today 🙁
It’s 9: 36 PM on day 215 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, feed myself a bread and jam sandwich for breakfast, , make sandwiches for the people in our housekeeper’s neighborhood (if you have no idea what I am talking about refer to ‘Day 184’) – it was a nightmare we had to make 6 loafs because 3 wasn’t enough I ended up crying out of frustration which was embarrassing to say the least hopefully it won’t be like this next week:) – tweet about my Clean Water For All Campaign for a few hours – no luck today – feed myself rice and curry for lunch, watch TV and watch She’s Out Of My League starring Jay Baruchel, Alice Eve, T.J. Miller on DVD – it was about learning to believe that you deserve the best in life and although the storyline was really sweet the raunchiness of it all ruined the movie.
Sitting at the dining table making sandwiches my mom looked at me and said your dad left me in the rain and told me to go into the hospital with someone else – they were meant to go visit this kid who had been in a scooter accident together – he looked at me and said who would go anywhere with you my mother continued wiping her tears with the inside of her palm and in that moment I suppressed the urge to wring my father’s neck and attempted to soothe my mother but after an hour of hearing her whine I was reaching the end of my rope and blurted out either get a divorce or shut up not because I liked or even loved my father but because I didn’t have the strength to carry my pain as well as hers. Do you burden your children with your problems?
There’s no time like the present to make all your dreams come true – that’s what I learned today 🙂
It’s 10: 22 PM on day 210 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, feed myself bun and jam for breakfast, tweet about my Clean Water For All Campaign for a few hours – no luck – feed myself rice and curry for lunch, watch TV, tweet about my campaign some more – no luck – feed myself bread and vegetable curry for dinner and continue to tweet about my campaign – still no luck 🙁
On March 8th of this year I read about Brennan and ever since then my life has never been the same which is why after days of posting messages of support on Brennan’s Brigade – his Facebook page – I asked to meet him via Skype – I’m still waiting for a response but hopefully Brennan and I will be chatting on Skype very soon :). Do you live your dreams every day or postpone them for a better day?