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Day 1732: Praying through the questions

Sometimes you just have to pray through the questions – that’s what I keep realizing.

 

It’s 12 : 05  PM on day 1732 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, pray,  read Jonah 4, publish my Disability of the Day feature,     learn one new thing –In the 16th and 17th centuries, Europeans believed that somewhere in the New World was a city of gold, waiting to be discovered. Despite several expeditions to South America, including two by Sir Walter Raleigh, the legendary city of El Dorado was never found.–feed myself peanut butter and banana sandwich for breakfast  and promote my Educate Generations campaign– $3 045 raised so far so grateful.

 

Today I was wondering why God would let someone like Jenna Lowe, who was doing so much good in the world, suffer and die while murders and rapists roam the earth free to do evil I guess some questions I’ll never get answers to so I’ll just pray through the questions.

Day 1454: Anger, Faith and The Unfairness of Life

“… FAITH: … Full Assurance In The Heart.” ― Nick Vujicic

 

It’s 1  : 57 PM on day 1454 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  brush my teeth,hang out with my sister,  pray, read Psalm 142,  publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself a peanut butter sandwich  for breakfast and hang out with family.

 
This morning I woke up feeling uncomfortable in my body and angry sometimes I catch myself thinking I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I try to be nice to everybody and I’m the one suffering having Cerebral Palsy sometimes feels like a punishment even though I know deep down that it’s a platform for God to reach more people through me.

 

Day 1293: Praying through the questions

“Why does the Almighty not set times for judgment?
Why must those who know him look in vain for such days?
There are those who move boundary stones;
they pasture flocks they have stolen.
They drive away the orphan’s donkey
and take the widow’s ox in pledge.
They thrust the needy from the path
and force all the poor of the land into hiding.
Like wild donkeys in the desert,
the poor go about their labor of foraging food;
the wasteland provides food for their children.
They gather fodder in the fields
and glean in the vineyards of the wicked.
Lacking clothes, they spend the night naked;
they have nothing to cover themselves in the cold.
They are drenched by mountain rains
and hug the rocks for lack of shelter.
The fatherless child is snatched from the breast;
the infant of the poor is seized for a debt.
10 Lacking clothes, they go about naked;
they carry the sheaves, but still go hungry.
11 They crush olives among the terraces[a];
they tread the winepresses, yet suffer thirst.
12 The groans of the dying rise from the city,
and the souls of the wounded cry out for help.
But God charges no one with wrongdoing.

Job 24: 1 – 12

 

It’s 1  : 37  PM on day 1293 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  pray,   brush my teeth,  feed myself bran flakes for breakfast read Job 27,  publish my Disability of the Day feature,  promote my Eradicate AIDS campaign – no donations so far today  I’ve realized no matter how many times I tell people about Eradicate AIDS those who want to will donate and those who don’t won’t so just for today I’m taking a break I’m only 23 it’s not healthy for me to sit in front of the laptop all day every day trying to convince people to be the change they want to see – and talk to my granny in India via Skype.

 

This morning I woke up believing there was a God but I still couldn’t help wondering where he was good people were suffering while evil people were roaming the earth doing whatever they pleased I think I’m going through what our reverend calls a “period of spiritual dryness” I guess having faith means praying through the questions.

Day 1214: Stop looking every which way and start looking up

When you feel like everything going to hell in a handbasket stop looking every which way and start looking up – that’s what I realized today.

 

It’s  12: 09 PM on day 1214 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, brush my teeth,  read 2 Chronicles 17, publish my Disability of the Day feature, feed myself eggs with bread for breakfast and hang out with my family. 

 

This morning I felt like everything was going wrong in that moment I realized I should stop looking every which way and start looking up.  In times of trouble do you look every which way but up?

Day 1029: Faith, what is it exactly?

Faith is believing in that which you cannot see or understand  – that’s what I keep learning 🙂

It’s 2  : 19  PM on day 1029 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to pray, stretch my hamstrings, try to clean myself in the bathroom – I still can’t do it by myself properly but I’m getting there 🙂 –  brush my teeth,  feed myself a boiled egg and  All Bran Flakes for breakfast, read Joshua 12, publish my Disability of the Day feature,  practice typing with both hands,  tweet and Facebook about my campaign – still no luck – and play outside with my brother – kids can  be brutally honest when I got outside my brother was playing Cricket by himself so I said come, I’ll throw to which he said matter-of-factly you can’t throw properly he didn’t mean it in a mean way he was just being honest as only kids can be but his words stung because I’m acutely aware that I can’t play with him like my sister plays with him it’s moments like that that I wish I inhabited a typical body oh well I guess we don’t always get what we wish for 🙁   

The morning I was thinking about all the stories of miracles  told in The Bible the fall of the wall of Jericho, water pouring out of a stone  and others and although I believed that God did perform those miracles I couldn’t understand how it defied science but then  I thought of my own life God is using someone that the world considers broken to give people water and to feed people and and and I still don’t know how He’s doing most of the things He’s doing through me all I know is that He is doing it I guess that’s what faith is believing in that which you cannot see or understand.  Do you have faith?

Day 1013: Have a little faith

Have a little faith– that’s what I learned today 🙂

It’s 1  : 36   PM on day 1013 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth,  feed myself a boiled egg and All Bran Flakes for breakfast,   pray, read Deuteronomy 30, publish my Disability of the Day feature,    tweet and Facebook about my campaign –  no luck – and practice typing with both hands

This morning I awoke thinking of the future but instead of laying awake and fretting about it like I usually did I went back to sleep subconsciously deciding to do what I can and leave the rest up  to God after all God  has been taking care of me thus far and my life hasn’t turned out too bad. Do you have enough faith to do what you can and let do the rest?

Day 881

Being Christian, if you take it seriously, is no joke – that’s what I learned today 🙂

It’s  4 : 12 PM on day 881 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to  brush my teeth, put on a new t-shirt, pray,  read Exodus 1, go to church – the kids from Sunday School came to visit us it was too precious for words lots of singing and dancing I strive to live life with child-like faith children believe in God just because –     feed myself Chapati and potato  curry for breakfast, drink coffee by myself, publish my Disability of the Day feature,  publish my Kid of the Week feature,    practice typing with both hands and practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles.

This morning was drab and dreary and I really didn’t feel like going to church but I got up and went anyway I figured it was the least I could do for all God has done for me when I was younger I only used to pray and read The Bible when my life was going badly but now I realize that being Christian is reading The Bible when you’d rather be doing something else, praying even when you feel like God has gone on vacation, turning the other cheek when you’d rather punch someone out… being Christian is a commitment you make to put God first every moment of your life regardless of whether your life is going well or not. Do you take your faith seriously?

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Day 797

When you see yourself as a representative of God it’s pretty hard to do the wrong thing  – that’s what I learned today 🙂

It’s  4 : 45 PM on day 797 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to stretch my hamstrings, brush my teeth, publish my Disability of the Day feature, publish my Kid of the Week feature, practice typing with both hands, go to church and go with my sister and her friends to watch Breaking Dawn Part 2 – I really like that they added a few surprises while staying true to the book I give it 8/10 only because I feel like they skipped through some of the scenes a little too quickly  (I read the books so I couldn’t help comparing the books to the movies).

This morning while people were singing in church I realized that it’s hard for me to do the wrong thing because I see myself as a representative of my family, my community and God when you see yourself as a representative of God you tend to think twice before you do or say things because you know that whatever you do or say reflects on God.  Is it hard for you to do the wrong thing because you believe what you believe?

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Day 770

Having Cerebral Palsy has brought me closer to God – that’s what I learned today 🙂

It’s 1 : 33 PM on day 770 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to stretch my hamstrings, brush my teeth,publish my Disability of the Day feature, practice typing with both hands, practice sitting up straight to strengthen my core muscles, feed myself All Bran Flakes for breakfast and watch TV.

Today while exercising I realized that having Cerebral Palsy has brought me closer to God I pray every morning, every night and whenever I need someone to just listen my parents try their best to fix things for me but sometimes they can’t and I don’t want them to feel helpless so I go into my room, lay on my bed staring at the ceiling and talk to God until I have nothing left to say it really helps some people pray a night before they need something and I have to bite my tongue to keep from asking why do you only pray when you need something faith is an all or nothing deal you can’t just pray when you need something and expect God to give you what you want when you want it. Have challenges in your life brought you closer to your higher power?

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Day 762

Faith is an important part of life – that’s what I keep learning 🙂

It’s  3 : 51 PM on day 762 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, publish my Disability of the Day feature, publish my Kid of the Week feature, go to church – the sermon was titled Worthy of Love  the reverend said something I will never forget as  long as I live he said some things are loved because they are worthy others are worthy because they are loved –  feed myself  All Bran Flakes and  an apple for breakfast,     spend time with family and visitors,  feed myself rice and curry for lunch and listen to music.

Today sitting in church before the service started I tried to imagine what my life would be like if I thought everything happened at random and I realized I would go crazy it’s because of my faith that I’m able to deal with anything life throws at me I believe that a person who lives life without believing in something is feeling their way through life hoping they’ll end up where they’re supposed to.  Is faith an important part of your life?

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