However I feel is ok – that’s what I’m learning

This year has been somewhat difficult so far (a mix of highs and heartbreak) thankfully physically i’m pain-free but there’s nothing quite like being a first born and the last child still left in the house I love my parents and i’m grateful they house me (I can’t move out because i need too much physical help and even if i was to move out and live with an aide the aides here are not professional they show up they feel like it and that wouldn’t work with my life) so I stay with my dependable parents…everybody else is married with kids and I’m happy for them but I always feel like I’m watching a moving I’ll never be a part of I hope there are enough good people in the world who will include me in their adventures of their own accord…I feel blah and that’s ok (for now)